Feeling full of fear and stuckness?
(Then we call upon Margaret Lynch!).
You are absolutely not moving forward, you feel sick to your stomach and you’d rather clean the oven than do that ‘thing’ you say you want to do.
It could be your inner saboteur.
As I’m writing this I’m feeling scared. And that means I’ve been doing everything apart from what I should be doing.
I’m avoiding the ‘should’ like the plague.
Even though I want to do the should, there is a part of me that doesn’t want the should.
And that part is winning.
Like Olympic gold medal winning.
I know it, it knows it, and not much is shifting it. So I thought I’d write about it, because by outing it, exposing it to the cold light of day, I might be able to shift it.
But it’s taken me all day to get to the point where I can sit down and write.
Why do we do this to ourselves? As in stop ourselves reaching forward?
I want my life to change for the better, I am so utterly fed up with my life right now, and according to the Guru’s, this fear/procrastination is a flag marking treasure below. This fear of the ‘should’ is the exact thing I need to do, in order to get through the fear.
But I’m not doing it.
I’m faffing about labelling files, cleaning out drawers, reading a ton of stuff about how I can move forward, not too dissimilar to this post really; but I’m not really doing the work.
Take baby steps they say.
So I’m writing about it, I’m spilling the beans, telling all about how I’m stuck.
Only now I have taken a baby step, I’ve written this short post.
I’ve taken action through the fear.
And I do feel better.
One of my favourite movies, ‘Contact’ staring Jodie Foster, has the line, “small moves Ellie, small moves.”
And this is so true.
Small moves like compounded interest gradually add up.
Today I’ve made a small move, I can do this, but maybe only with small moves for today.
And that’s OK until I break through the stuckness and the fear, and get myself to the next level.
But what if you can’t even get to the point of taking that first step?
Then we call on the Guru Margaret Lynch.
Her video about the inner saboteur could be for you. It’s powerful, and may bring up a few issues for you, but trust me, this works.
This woman knows her stuff!
I watched this video after I wrote the draft for this post. The result? I’ve spent a further 2 hours enjoying the ‘should’.
This video is saved on a play list for me for exactly those times when my inner saboteur is winning, and I’m not.